We often struggle against the symptoms, only to find that they become stronger than before. This is called the journey of the martyr or champion, where you are fooled into believing that foe is vanquished...or will be finally vanquished with this new drug. Unfortunately with inner work, the foe cannot be vanquished, in fact it is wanting you to truly understand it, for it embodies energy within a closed system, so to "vanquish" it, the energy simply transforms into something else, often much worse and harder to combat in its new form.
You probably have had personal experience with this phenomenon. There is another path and it resonates with reconciliation; the hero's path. The hero meets the symptom in the wasteland, comes to understand its true nature, which is to return the energy you need, home. When it arrives home, you receive the gifts it has, and return to the village of normal life with these gifts. Every client who embarks on a Hero's Journey describes what happens as "a switch, a woosh, a tingling sensation, a rush of energy, etc", its your body responding the return of the 'prodigal son', to use a Biblical analogy of the rejected part returning to celebration. Dreams often reveal this emergence from chaos, long before.
Inner change is often subtle, and the changes will ripple like an energy wave that encompasses all that you do and know. It is often noticeable by others, especially those who you are intimate with. You are also on the path that resonates with your heart....that's why you had the symptoms in the first place....your inner life was in a desperate struggle with you to bring rejected energy home.
The mind body integration therapy helps you enter the mysterious world of your subconscious mind and somatic (body) mind.
"I have been to many counselors but although they give me useful tools, there is so much resistance, that the tools become ineffective. Like a pill, I may feel different for awhile, but the environment I am in doesnt seem to change. I just become numb and have a feeling of endless sameness."
Paradoxically, the closer you come to the threshold, the stronger your negative behaviours and symptoms can become.They have been struggling with you for so long, they are often the last thing you want to understand. This is often when we retreat from the doorway, yet it can also be viewed as a sign that this is the very doorway that you must go through.
Cameron will teach you the art of meditation
This doorway is exactly the place where you will encounter guardians, those people and objects that give you strength to endure the passage from your old world to the new world. Your symptoms at this point appear as demons, so your guardians keep you on your path and remind you that you have retreated before, only to end up in the same place again and again. You already know some of your guardians, both living and dead, and you will meet more. A guardian will also exist in your inner world of dreams, although often not in the same form as they exist(ed) in the outer world.
You may also begin to meet other travellers, those people who share your path, and remind you that this struggle is not yours alone, they too have been before their own doorway, and have retreated, only to return again...and this time, step through and begin the journey. They also remind you that the old ways have not worked. You have already encountered some of them in your life, and this work sends out a call to meet new travellers on both sides of the doorway.
You also need sponsors, those people who give you courage and remind you that the demons you encounter on the other side of the door, have gifts to give you for your life on this side, because you will return. They also remind you that it is you who will enter the doorway, and when your feet are firmly placed on the path, your outer, inner and somatic minds are of one accord.
* individual results vary from person to person. These are average guidelines, your progress may be slower or faster.